My Big Life Change!

Picture taken by Abby Austin of 1000 Miles on my own two feet.



MY GOALS FOR LIFE!

To transform my life, with God's help of course, one step at a time.

1. Get healthy & honor God with my body

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2.Become at least 50% sustainable with emphasis on doing our part to take care of God's planet.


3. Live life as an adventure, experiencing new places, things & people.
18 out of 150 bucket list goals accomplished


4. Become debt free & build security for my family, so we can then bless others financially also.

5. Continue to grow closer to God, building My family's faith & sharing the Gospel with those we meet, by using the talents and gifts God has provided us.

6.Continue to make money by creating and sharing my thoughts and beliefs through artistic expression: all the while hoping that my art will impact others. "Holly Kennedy

: All I know is, if you don't figure out this something, you'll just stay ordinary, and it doesn't matter if it's a work of art, or a taco, or a pair of socks! Just create something... new, and there it is, and it's you, out in the world, outside of you, and you can look at it, or hear it, or read it, or feel it... and you know a little more about... you. A little bit more than anyone else does... Does that make any sense at all?" Quote from PS I LOVE YOU

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Brokenness!

You never think it will happen to you!

When a routine appointment turns into a scary one.

Waiting on test results that could be the phone call that changes your life forever.

No Cancer!

Thank the Lord!

I feel as if we dodged a bullet! My heart is slowly coming out of my chest and yet, I have felt a peace with me the whole time.
Yes there were moments of panic and fear, restlessness and uncertainness, but I can honestly say that through most of the trial I was at peace.

I know your confused and wondering but give me a minute and let me explain!

Early on in my recovery I called my Celebrate Recovery Sponsor, feeling hopeless. So afraid that my food addiction and codependency would be the death of me. I could see no way out of the despair that consumed me in my alone time. I was so busy being who everyone else needed me to be that I didn't know how to be me. My sponsor told me a story that I have meditated on to this day. She said that there was a point in a little waiting room where she cried out to God. Her children and grandchildren were involved in an automobile accident and it looked like they weren't going to make it. She cried out to God for help and He asked her if everyone that she loved were gone, would she still love Him? Would she still trust Him? She told me I needed to have true faith in God! Not petty my life is good faith but true faith. I have prayed from that moment on to be a true believer! I want to be that person that believes in God wholeheartedly! I want to be like Paul, who was imprisoned and eventually killed for his faith, but is still bringing the words of Christ to us now.

Does that mean that I want to lose my family? NO!
Does that mean I want to go to prison? NO!
Does that mean that I want to die a matter. NO!

But I do want to have that kind of faith and devotion to the one true Savior, Healer, Protector and Father! Because He has given me the power to overcome the obsticles on this Earth! I have met many people in this life that are Pauls'. And the one thing they have in common is brokenness. Broken to a point that the world couldn't accept them anymore, but Jesus did! He restored them to better than before, they were no longer their story's but God's story.

So when my husband's doctor told him that he was very concerned about John having cancer due to the abnormally low testosterone he had in his body and other symptoms, it didn't destroy me. I was able to go to God in prayer.

Yes I had moments of fear of the future, but I know that God holds my future.
I had fear of loss but I know that God is the ultimate Comforter.
I had fear of the sickness, but I know that God is the ultimate healer.

But what I kept seeing in these moments was God providing. God healing. God protecting. God using this as a testimony!

I cannot measure the amount of love and support that God has provided our family in the last few days. But I know without a doubt that God is always working! Nothing surprises Him. He is always there waiting for us to crawl into His arms and confide in Him. I know that He will let us go through these trials for that reason.

I am not Paul.
I have not reached my goal yet.
I do have a long way to go.

But, I am walking closer and closer to that finish line. Reaching farther and farther for His hand. Growing stronger and more like Jesus with every fall and trip and hurdle. God loves broken people! When we are weak He is strong!

What will it take in this life to bring you to Him? Do you agree or disagree with what I have said? I love comments! And I love you!

15 comments:

  1. Oh, thank You God!!!!

    Such good news! We've been praying here in the Carolinas for this news. :)

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    1. Thank you Beth we didn't want to worry you guys or that precious little niece of mine, but we needed your prayer support! Love you guys!

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  2. I am thinking of closing my blog down...

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  3. Wonderful news! I'm happy good health and Trust are with you. Keep them!

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    1. We are trying to do our best, but so glad that God gives us friends who help remind us!

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  4. God loves broken people. Glory and forever hallelujah.

    I am SO RELIEVED and thankful alongside you that it is not cancer. Great reflections on the truth of our lives in Christ!

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    1. Thank you Megan! I so admire your writing and spirit for the Lord! Thank you for your kind words.

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  5. I love what you've written... It's so very true, He is there waiting for us to have that Child-like faith to trust Him - IN THE GOOD, THE BAD AND EVEN IN THE UGLY :). I love your honesty and your heart. And I'm so glad you received good news.

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    1. Thank you Amber, I really have grown so much in the last few years, and I feel like He is transforming my eyes to see differently. Those things I used to love don't matter anymore. I love all those beautiful posts and pics on FB of superman. He is growing so fast! I feel that you are wonderful mommy and that you have so much Godly wisdom! Are you still writing your blog?

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    2. Never mind about the blog, I just saw that you post pics recently, I don't know why my dashboard didn't show it, I hate computers sometimes!

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  6. I am so happy that your hubby is ok.. wow how scary. Thank the Lord for his love & miracles. I loved the blog and I do agree we have to believe truly not just say it. I am giving you a BIG hug right now and kisses for you all.
    God Bless ~Misty ~

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    1. Aww Misty, hugs right back! God is so faithful to us undeserving!

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  7. Teresa, I truly hope you know how inspirational you are to me! I just listened to Joel Osteen preach about how God "prunes" us to move on and be open to change in our lives. He doesn't do anything just to harm us, as it feels like, but to make us better and stronger and more open to receive his blessings in other ways. Thank you for all your inspirational feelings, the love you bear me and the blessings you bring into my life by being you!

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  8. Oh Cherrell, you inspire me! You are so strong! I love you!

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