I'm trying to work with Jaxon on sitting up. I will sit him upright and he will lean forward and stay that way, for about a second. Then he topples over this way or that and I pick him up and start again. I think that is how my relationship with God is. He sets me up and with hands at the ready, waits for me to fall and learn. Then He picks me up and we do it again.
There are so many things in life that I want now. I want my food addiction to be gone. I want to be skinny. I want to accomplish all of my adventures. I want my freedom and 8 hours of sleep back. I want a house with a backyard. I want to be debt free. Yet in all of these things God is making me wait. I have to take each one step by step. It is hard for me to wait. I want to see the fruits of my labor now. I want to eat dessert without eating first my veggies. I want to cross the finish line without running the race.
Much of my problem with waiting is that I am lazy. I don't mind working for something if I know that I am going to get paid for it. But hard work has never been in my plans. I could never be a construction worker, or a farmer. Hard physical work isn't in my jeans. Working 14 hours on a puzzle or an administrative problem is more up my alley.
I think that is why I don't want to change certain things, because it will require work. But God is slowly teaching me patience. He is teaching me that I have to put one foot in front of the other and learn to balance before I can stand.
Balancing is very hard to learn. At first we need help balancing. Using tools to keep us upright. I am learning that you can't have play time with out the work. How there is time for hard work and if you skip that then you are skipping the blessings that come from hard work. And yes, hard work is tiring but the Bible says.
in Isaiah 40:31:
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
This is my new favorite verse. I also like 1 Corinthians 9:24
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.
How about you? What are you waiting on? What is the Lord teaching you right now?
He's teaching me to Love those who hurt me. Love is the greatest commandment. It's so hard, but with Him I can do it because He's the one who commanded me to Love those who hurt me.
ReplyDeleteLoved this post, T. Great job.
So proud of you. Learning to love those who seem unlovable seems like the hardest thing to do, but I feel that we are never more like Christ then when we do this.
DeleteMy Lord is teaching me to turn things to him and stop worrying so much. He is giving me the strength to handle things in my life that I haven't been able to handle before. He is leading me to a better relationship with him. Currently I am waiting to lose a lot of weight and to be skinny again. I am waiting on financial freedom, social security disability and a organized home and garage, a vehicle that I can use instead of having to always borrow my mothers car and I am also waiting on my husbands vehicle to be fixed.
ReplyDeleteWaiting can be hard. Thankfully God puts friends in our lives to help us wait. Praying for you!
DeleteBeautiful post, Teresa! I love your connections. I am proud of you and believe in you, my friend!
ReplyDeletePS--love your new look for the blog :)
PS #2 - Really LOVE your new blog look! I am seeing the web version now. I am glad you like the photo B-)
DeleteYes, I love the photo! You are an amazing photographer.
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