I'm trying to work with Jaxon on sitting up. I will sit him upright and he will lean forward and stay that way, for about a second. Then he topples over this way or that and I pick him up and start again. I think that is how my relationship with God is. He sets me up and with hands at the ready, waits for me to fall and learn. Then He picks me up and we do it again.
There are so many things in life that I want now. I want my food addiction to be gone. I want to be skinny. I want to accomplish all of my adventures. I want my freedom and 8 hours of sleep back. I want a house with a backyard. I want to be debt free. Yet in all of these things God is making me wait. I have to take each one step by step. It is hard for me to wait. I want to see the fruits of my labor now. I want to eat dessert without eating first my veggies. I want to cross the finish line without running the race.
Much of my problem with waiting is that I am lazy. I don't mind working for something if I know that I am going to get paid for it. But hard work has never been in my plans. I could never be a construction worker, or a farmer. Hard physical work isn't in my jeans. Working 14 hours on a puzzle or an administrative problem is more up my alley.
I think that is why I don't want to change certain things, because it will require work. But God is slowly teaching me patience. He is teaching me that I have to put one foot in front of the other and learn to balance before I can stand.
in Isaiah 40:31:
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
This is my new favorite verse. I also like 1 Corinthians 9:24
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.
How about you? What are you waiting on? What is the Lord teaching you right now?