My Big Life Change!

Picture taken by Abby Austin of 1000 Miles on my own two feet.


To transform my life, with God's help of course, one step at a time.

1. Get healthy & honor God with my body

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2.Become at least 50% sustainable with emphasis on doing our part to take care of God's planet.

3. Live life as an adventure, experiencing new places, things & people.
18 out of 150 bucket list goals accomplished

4. Become debt free & build security for my family, so we can then bless others financially also.

5. Continue to grow closer to God, building My family's faith & sharing the Gospel with those we meet, by using the talents and gifts God has provided us.

6.Continue to make money by creating and sharing my thoughts and beliefs through artistic expression: all the while hoping that my art will impact others. "Holly Kennedy

: All I know is, if you don't figure out this something, you'll just stay ordinary, and it doesn't matter if it's a work of art, or a taco, or a pair of socks! Just create something... new, and there it is, and it's you, out in the world, outside of you, and you can look at it, or hear it, or read it, or feel it... and you know a little more about... you. A little bit more than anyone else does... Does that make any sense at all?" Quote from PS I LOVE YOU

Monday, January 28, 2013

Update from 3 months to Three years.

Both my children are 3?!?! Jaxon is now 3 months old and Joslyn is 3 years. I have meant to post about Joslyn's birthday party but time has slipped away. Here are a few updates on my life in the trenches.

He is driving already. Okay not really but isn't that cute, daddy already giving him lessons. There is really not much to complain about with this precious child. He is so very sweet. Loves to be held and mostly a laid back baby. Loves to smile and talk to me especially. Sometimes we will have 10 minute conversations in baby coos back and forth. He looks like he even listens to me which is definitely not the case with sister. He prefers sitting up in his highchair or his bouncer as opposed to laying down. He does enjoy a small amount of time in his crib with his play mat toys and his light up mobile. He is still sleeping in his boppy in bed with momma. I have gotten much advice about when to put him in his own bed, but right now we are happy co-sleeping. I am not strong enough yet to make the transition into his own bed yet and will definitely need daddy home for awhile to help me when that transfer happens. He still gets up every 3 to 4 hours to eat at night and occasionally I will get 5 hours and that feels like heaven. Many nights when John gets home he will find me asleep propped up with Jaxon propped up in my arms and the bottle buried amongst the covers. Staying awake for those feedings doesn't always happen. But we do enjoy much playtime now and I still claim that he is teething though nothing is popping through yet. It is very hard to control the drool. Big sister and I sometimes call him Bubbles from the bubbles that he blows, but the sweetest thing is when sister calls him her buddy. He lights up my moments with his smiles.


Our little princess as daddy calls her. If she were a little princess she would not have on a poofy dress, or she would be the one in a poofy dress in the middle of a mud puddle. She loves to be outdoors. And we are super excited for spring to come since she will be starting soccer. I can't wait to see how she does on a team. She is so very social. She loves meeting new people and calls all little boys and girls she meets friends. I hope she is always like this. She can be prissy in her attitude but really isn't in her fashion sense. I am very glad about this because this momma isn't fashion savvy at all. She picks out her shoes for the day and her jammies at night. She loves jammies and they have to match for her to wear them but she has boy WOODY  and Boy Bug pajamas and those are just as special as the tinkerbell and lalaloopsey ones. Joslyn loves to read books and sing. I have always commented that she is musically talented and I still think that. She sings most of her songs on the right pitch. Right now we are looking at schools to send her to. And although I have been very public about my opinion that it doesn't matter which school you send your kid to, we have been very concerned about what school is the right fit for our little girl. I had really wanted to homeschool. But the more I learn about my sweet talented, smart little girl, the more I know in my heart it isn't right for her. I am not opposed to public education at all, but my husband is. So we have almost agreed that she will go to a Christian private school. The question is where. And only God can tell us that. Joslyn is very smart and mature for her age. She is also very big for her age. Her height is definitely on the 100 percent mark along with her weight. She picks up a lot from conversations. Our little girl is a funny little girl. She loves to make people laugh and get attention that way. Her and daddy have that in common and we are pretty sure that she will be the class clown. There are good and bad things about that trait. She is also at a very stubborn and testing stage of her life and she definitely knows how to press my buttons. But we also have lots of sweet moments and moments where I am such a proud momma. She is very active and always likes to be on the go. Neither one of us likes to sit at home.

Reading the Christmas Story on Christmas Day

Well I will admit I am not at my best right now. But I know that this is a testing time from God. I have much to learn about patience and boundaries. As a person in recovery I am constantly aware of the struggles and victories that God is working on in me. I struggle with my food addiction really bad right now. One of the reasons I don't like to be home much is because I have trouble staying out of the refrigerator  I really consider having my jaw wired shut sometimes. It is easier to control my eating urges when I am amongst other people. I also struggle with impatience. My daughter and I have clashing personalities. It frustrates me to no end when she is defiant and disobedient, but I also know that I am constantly at fault for not giving special attention to her. My mind and body wants to take refuge from the chaos and noise that is my life by hiding away. My body by numbing with food and my mind with distracting tv and internet. Anything to escape. So I am constantly having to work on staying present in the moment. It doesn't help that I am not happy with our current work situation and that I am overly tired all the time. But despite all of this, I am gaining ground. They say in recovery that each relapse is shorter or less intense and ultimately we learn from our mistakes. I am learning how to communicate my feelings and  fears. I am trying to be open with Joslyn about why I get frustrated at her disobedience and my anger is significantly reduced when we talk it out. Otherwise, my life is good. I know it sounds discouraging, but my struggles are just struggles. I still mostly have good weeks and I really enjoy my Celebrate Recovery groups and BSF. I have been singing at CR again and it feels really good to get back in the saddle again. Worshipping God with my voice has always been the best way for me to communicate with God. I feel like we have a direct line with Him when I am singing to Him. I have enjoyed slowly getting the kids room decorated is Dr. Suess.

I am especially in love with the red fish blue fish clock that I got on Amazon. I still have much more to get to make the room feel Suessish, including 2 quilts made by my momma for the kiddos bed. 
We also have been considering moving into a rent house when our lease is up. We are much in need of a backyard for Joslyn and the doggies. I want a safe place for her to play. 


John is still enjoying his night route back and forth to Dallas and I am slowly getting used to the schedule. I would be no where with out the help of Marcie and Bobby. They are my support during the long weeks. John has been excited to get a rifle and hopefully get his hunting license soon. He got us signed up for a gun safety course in the next few months and that is on the adventure list for this women. I don't think it will change my stance on guns in the house, but knowing the safety rules could never hurt. 

So that is us! What has been up with you?

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Cold and flu season

It comes around every year. Around Joslyn's birthday the tissues and cold medicine are moved to the endcaps of the grocery stores. We get out the humidifier and the Vicks  I think that this is the first year that I have been prepared for sickness. After two years of cold and flu seasons with Joslyn I was starting to get the hang of when it would visit our house. This last two weeks we have had two visits to the doctor and have another one today. But I was a little surprised when Jax came down with RSV. I was expecting the flu or a cold, but not that. It really scared me. You hear of the horror stories of babies that end up in the hospital with this virus. I have to say I was so impressed with my doctor. She sat me down and explained all the risks and all the steps I could take to try to avoid an er visit. But mostly she eased my nerves by saying that if he ends up at the hospital there was nothing I could do to stop it. That this sickness has to run its course they way it would. All babies are different and react differently to these viruses. It was nice to have all the information up front.

In life I wish God had given me the plot of my story. I like to have all the info up front. But I know that if I saw all the things in my life that I would endure and accomplish, I would be too afraid to move. Because, when I see something coming I try and figure out how I can handle it, or what I can do. But I know that God wants to be the one who is in charge of my life. And instead of me handling something, He wants me to call on Him. But the good news is that we aren't left completely clueless. He left us some great help. First he gave us The Bible. The manual to which we can live our lives by. It has all the answers of how to solve all of our problems. Secondly, He gave us The Holy spirit that can guide His followers on the right path. The little voice in our heads that helps us make the right choices and leads us towards God's will. Then of course the most important gift is Jesus. Not only is he our way to Heaven which is our eternal destination, but He gives us the example of how to treat others and how to live. Only Jesus lived a perfect life and though we can't be perfect we can follow his example and his commandments.

So remember to prepare for the colds and flus of your life by reading the Bible, listening to the Holy Spirit and following Christ's example. So that when they do come around, they don't devastate you or throw you off course of God's plan.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Random Questions

Saw this on a friends blog and decided to do it on mine. 
 Simple Questions
1. Outside my window I see- little birdies staring at me from the glass waiting on their dinner. 
2. My kitchen counters are- actually clean! I just finished wiping them down.
3. Yesterday I drank…A Dr. Pepper but today I have avoided one so far! Yea!
4. My cell phone is…my favorite toy! I can do everything from check emails to play games to talk to my best friend! All while I am feeding a baby!
5. My computer is…the only thing I blog on, I can't stand blogging through my phone.
6. My favorite reality show is…Glee! Growing up in choir I miss the way music was a part of my life. Luckily I am starting to sing more and more in church.
7. My workouts are…on hold till the dr figures out why I am dizzy all the time. 
8. The last book I read is…The Maze Runner Series
9. My week will be….busy but I am so looking forward to Saturday where hubby and I get a date night!!!! Yippee!
10.  So far 2013 has been…incredibly fast! Today is my momma's birthday. Happy Birthday to the best person in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now it’s your turn to answer this week’s questions.  Don’t forget to come back and link up in the comments!  Happy Monday, friends!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Welcome 2013

I hope that you all had a happy new year. I know that a new year brings so many thoughts of new beginnings. New diets, new work out routines, new goals, new friends and new memories to make. But in CR we try and take things one step at a time. One moment at a time. So thinking about the new year I want to plan for the whole year and set outrageous goals and plans, but as someone in recovery I will plan for this week and tomorrow and this next moment.

I do want to follow suite with some other bloggers and pick a word for the year. The idea of picking a word for the year is to find moments in that year that you look for that word affecting your life. For example if you pick joy as your word, then you would try and look for joy throughout the year and write about it.

So my word of this year is Opportunity.
I am going to try and look for more opportunities.
Each meal is an opportunity to eat healthier.
Each person I meet is an opportunity to show God's love.
I am going to take the opportunities that are given to help me, instead of trying to handle it on my own.
I am going to try and create opportunities for others to grow closer to God.
I am going to use the opportunities God is giving me each day.

SO have you chosen a word for the year? What are you looking forward to this year or are you trying to take this year one moment at a time? Whatever your plans are for the new year, I hope you grow closer to God and learn more about yourself. And I hope that you see the opportunities that God is giving you!

Happy New Year!