Well I thought I would do a slight update on my 6 goals. Since I am less than 3 years away from my goals, things look a little daunting. But even though, I am excited about my progress. God is slowly working in me changing the way I think and act. I have seen such progress in myself since I started this blog almost 2 years ago. Yes two years! In April it will be two years exactly and although, my blog sometimes veers off track I really believe that my original goals that I just jotted down are the things that God is working with me on. Now I am not blogging because I am a new mom with so many new experiences that I NEED an outlet. I am blogging with the full purpose of reaching others through Christ as He changes my quality of life.
1. Lose 150 lbs. Well I haven't accomplished this goal and since I haven't been weighing myself, I can't tell if I have lost anything. But, for the first time in my life I am getting up and going to the gym without outside motivation and I am addicted to a certain yoga class. In fact though I am the fattest girl in there, I feel like I belong, and that I am accomplishing more and more. Today I bought my first yoga mat and I feel like a proud yogaee (Is that a word?)! I remember when my friend Abby bought her first hiking pack and her excitement that she really was becoming a hiker. I feel that since of accomplishment, and I am hoping that eventually I will have that much success! I have to believe that!
2.Go green. Truthfully I have no idea where God is headed with us on this, since we had to move from country, where we could of had a garden and stored half of a cow and done many other green things, to an apartment. My goal is to try and start a small and I mean really small container garden of herbs this spring on my little porch. If I can keep those alive, then we will see about more. We have been recycling like crazy though. My hubby gets sick of the bags of recycled plastics, paper and tin cans that I collect. I try and take them every week because we litterally have no room to store them. But it is amazing to me how much stuff we could have been recycling all these years and didn't. My trash can doesn't have to be emptied as often and we recycle glass jars for my craft collection. We also collect those baby wipe containers and the plastic round big ice cream buckets for homeschool and craft stuff.
3.Become adventurous. On my list of 150 new things to try I have accomplished 15. And number 14 was completed the other day, because my passport has arrived. It is in a blue shiny new book and it looks so wonderful and it is so pretty! Just have to use it! When I look at the amount of time left and my still growing list of stuff to do I am bummed. But when I remember how special some of my adventures have been and how they have slowly gotten me out of my comfort zone. Like when I walked on eggshells to remember that I would never again walk on eggshells for anyone. Or when I had my first food fight! So I know that God is really changing me through each small adventure and each time I meet new people and feel a little more confident about who God made me to be! Always stay tuned for more adventures, sometimes I schedule them and sometimes they just happen.
4.Enrich my marriage. Well I am feeling much more confident about this goal then some of the others. God has really blessed me in this department. And the reason I say this is not because I have been working on it. REALLY!!! When I took my first blue chip in CR over 4 years ago, I surrendered my marriage. And really I don't have much trouble with trying to take control over my marriage anymore. I think one of the best reasons is because I am so open about me being in recovery for codependency. I have changed so much in the ways I try and conrol others and my situations. And with me being so open about my vulnerablity I have seen amazing changes in my hubby. He is much more open with me too! Our communication has never been better and although we still have troubles like other couples do, we seem to be able to have the tools to handle them. I also have really been humbled by my friend's marriages ending and marriages mending. It makes it really easy to value what you have when you have watched your friends lose what they love.
5.Teach Joslyn to enjoy life and love others by example. Ouch this is one I really need to work on. Since I really struggle with this stage of Joslyn's life, I have trouble viewing my progress on this. And we have gone back and forth about homeschooling which would give me more time to teach her. But I think that she is going to grow up to be a very respectful young woman and I already see the love capability in her. And as far as enjoying life I know that she will. I know that providing everything a child wants does not make them happy. And happiness is not the same as joyfulness. Happiness is temporary. But I do believe that she will be reasonably happy. She has a very active imagination! My imagination has always helped me out in boring times, especially in high school, where I had my visions of my dream husbands planned down to the color of the carpet and the shoes on their feet. She is a very active child. I plan on keeping her with an active lifestyle and helping her as much as possible to not have my food addiction and laziness. And she is so curious. Although curiousity usually leads kids to trouble, it also brings them to try new things and experience life in a way I strive to!
6. Grow closer to God. Well that is apparant even to me! I feel with each new experience and each new trial God is pulling me closer and knocking down those walls I have built between us. Reading the entire Bible is something I plan on starting soon. But starting a new ministry is something I never knew that would happen and it has. Corinthian Writers is growing and we are now looking to expand and start adding writers to our group. Why because up until now God has provided each writer and girl as needed and we are so blessed for that. But He is showing us that we need to take a leap of faith and start ministering to a certain group home. I won't mention the home yet until it is finalized (we are in the beginning stages now) but we will require many more devoted ladies and gents that would like to commit to writing a hand written letter a month to a girl or boy that could use some encouragement. Some of the stipulations are that you need to have a strong faith in the Lord and you would need to take this ministry very seriously as we do, wanting to encourage and not destroy and lead to the Lord not away from the Lord. So it doesn't matter where you live, but if you would pray about this and see if this ministry is something you need to be involved in, then please contact me.
Thank you again for all of your comments and support as I continue on this path of enlightenment. My question for you would be: have you seen a change in me since you have started reading and what do you look forward to me accomplishing most on my goals? Have a great week!
Hi Teresa, I am the recycle queen. I even recycle for my office, which involves lugging home two lawn size garbage bags of plastic and aluminum every week. The surprising thing is at my home I have very little to recycle, because I am very careful about what I purchase. I won't buy something that is over-packaged, even something as small as carrots in a bag, if I can purchase them loose. I NEVER (and I rarely use that word) buy a single serve bottle of water, it takes more energy to recycle it than it is worth, the only good thing is, it keeps it out of the landfills. I use a water pitcher that has a filter, because I live in a house that was built in the 1920's and even though I have new pex under the house I still have the pipes coming into the house that are who knows how old. I also have a compost for my garden which I know won't work for you living in an apartment, but someone else reading this might decide it's a good idea. I just recycled a large plastic coffee container and wrapped it with some pretty shelf liner and it sits next to my sink and all my coffee grounds, egg shells, veggie peels etc. go in it. But my favorite recycle tip is I keep milk jugs under all my sinks and when I am running my water to get it hot I stick a jug under it until it is hot and use that to water my plants and animals, (I have a dog & cat rescue). So life is good and I so enjoy coming in and reading your inspirational blog. Although I do not know you personally, I feel as though we are becoming friends through your candid sharing. Regarding your last question I look forward to watching you grow in your walk with God. Don't be bummed with the amount of "stuff" you have left to do...just enjoy the journey and tweek the list. It should be accomplished easily and effortlessly if it truly NEEDS to be done. Thanks again for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThank me for sharing? Girl thank you for sharing!!! You made my day, heck my week! Why aren't we friends? We should be! I am not a coffee drinker but my second mom gives me her big coffee containers and they hold my daughter's puzzle pieces. I love that idea of buying non packaged carrots. Too bad they don't have non packaged chicken nuggets. :)
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ReplyDeleteGreat to find you via the Blog Ho. Stopping by from across the Pond! I could sit and stare at your sunset here forever!!!
ReplyDeleteI definitely see a change in you, Brown, since you started this blog. I've seen your confidence, your heart, your belief--in not just our Lord but in YOURSELF--grow since you've been writing. John and Joslyn are blessed to have a woman like you in your lives, as are the ministry and me (your friend!). You're so inspiring!
ReplyDeleteThank you Abby! I think that our God is doing amazing stuff in both of us and our best friend too!
Deletewow..you go girl...your new courage stems from faith!!! very inspiring ..with God all things are possible!!
ReplyDeletei first started gardening with little pots of herbs...and then progressed to patio tomatoes...
good luck with all your goals!!!
Yes God is faithful! It's official I am going to start my container herb garden this spring!
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